Scribbles

It's probably just me, but I find it far easier to remain positive when everything around me is going to shit. For most people I know it seems to be the opposite. One thing goes wrong and they think the whole world is crashing down on them - One tiny problem and just like that it's "FML". I hate that. I dont see why you can't keep your fucking head up, you still have neck muscles don't you? See there is  bright side to everything. I can be bubbly and hopeful when my life is shit and be there for others when things aren't going their way as well.

But then all of sudden things are great. Life is good. It's like a sonic boom went off and now everything is suspended in the air in, floating around in a state of grace. Why now, after all these years of remaining positive do I feel so negative? I float here in my time space continuum and watch everything around me as I wait for something to drop.

I'm not sure if I like floating. At times it's the most wonderful feeling in the world. Other times I feel confused. It can feel like purgatory. You aren't moving forward; you aren't moving backward; you have no idea how you got here or why you haven't been here all along; you love it but you hate it; you want it but you don't; it's non-threatening but you are still scared; it doesn't feel real, but then again, what does?

Life is excellent and I'm too afraid of falling to enjoy it.