Scribbles

We are two days away from a new year...

Looking back on this past year I can honestly say that I have accomplished a great deal and put myself on the right track to achieving some of the goals on my career path; however, these accomplishments were not really enjoyed. I experienced a lot of difficulty in my personal life.

I have been so terribly unhappy when I should have been ecstatic. I changed. I used to be happy, and fun and positive... I think. This past year something died inside me and I have felt like a careless robot, just going through the motions day after day. The only feelings I had really felt were fear and disappointment. I was tired of it, so I did something about it. I turned my life upside down and inside out. I realized I cannot fix everything that is broken. I'm not a robot. The only thing that I can fix is myself, and so the healing process began.

 Two months later, two days before 2011, I sit before you oh wise computer machine, and vow to you my new years resolution: Live.

I will be me and not apologize for it anymore. I will go on the adventures that I want to go on and experience new and wonderful things. I will push forward with my career. I will laugh with my friends. I will find new ways to enjoy time with my family. I will start new traditions. I will take good care of myself and others that are important to me. I allow myself to feel  - both good and bad. I will love and I will allow myself to be loved in return.

It's starting already, I feel the spark deep inside of me - watch me turn it into a fire.